Saturday, February 27, 2010

What goes down, must come up!

The week is almost over...and this has been insane! What I am most thankful for is my mother, my family-esque friends, and Taury. For everything good that happened to me this week, something worse followed. But today my blog is not going to focus on whining or complaining. I am going to praise the good! My clinicals were absolutely wonderful this week! I learned so much and maximized every opportunity I had to take on new skills. I LOVE learning and performing! Regardless of how exhausted I may be at the end of the day, that feeling of accompliment trumps all. I sincerely wish I was doing clinical days every day of the week. Second...I "finished" my hat. And yes, by hat, I mean big, floppy, square shaped, hot mess. But Haeli was a doll and made me a gorgeous flower to attach so today I am gonna work on that and hopefully it becomes something worth wearing ;) Speaking of Haeli, I went over to her place last night and had so much fun! That entire crew is just like family to me and I love my time with them! We made dinner, cookies (Haeli's first time by herself...picture included), and watched a scary movie, which had me shaking in my boots the entire ride home! Dinner was fabulous, cookies were delicious, and although the movie room was freezing, the 17 blankets made the evening perfect! This morning at 6:49 am my phone started ringing...and I was not mad at all when I saw that is was Taury. I absolutely can not hate anything about that guy...perfecto! Had a fabulous conversation and loved every minute of it!

Well...better get ready to hit the shop. If anybody is bored, stop by Sixth Avenue Apparel today and visit me! Love you all!!

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

My choice has positive consequences

I am on a quick break in class and felt this uncontrolable urge to blog about something that happened recently. I have a very good friend that I had dinner with on Friday night. She knows I have been going to the LDS church and brought it up after dinner which, by the way, I now feel she planned the timing so that I wouldn't leave before our delicious food arrived but that is besides the point. My friend decided that she wanted to convince me that I was making the wrong decision even though she does not even attend church or claim to have faith. This absolutely breaks me heart because I know what I am doing is right for me. Before she could move on, I explained to her that everything she was about to say would have no effect on me and that it would be similar to me saying that my favorite color is purple and even though yours is pink, you should chose purple because its the only color I know...or something? It doesn't make sense to me why she would do this when I am clearly a happier person. Oh and the thing that just makes me absolutely crazy is that every argument was backed up by the whole don't drink coffee or soda pop idea. Is that all they think the LDS church is about? I was like "there is more to the church than that. And they don't ban it for fun and to control us...its a suggestion and preventable measure to ensure a healthier life." I couldn't let myself be subject to her behavior so I soon excused myself. I'm not mad at her this because I know she is not experiencing the joy I am and can not possibly understand why I'm accepting this; however, I am disappointed in her for trying to convince me to do otherwise without valid knowledge or reasoning. I understand that not everybody will accept or support my decision and these situations are really just road blocks but I know what I want and what I am going to do.

It hasn't been all bad though. I ran into a friend at church this last Sunday and she mentioned that the last time she saw me (at work), she noticed there was something different about me. I was like "well, I cut bangs?" After seeing me in church last weekend she confessed that I have a new "glow" to me and it was clearly because of my new faith and involvement in the LDS church. My mother has also made this much accepted accusation. I appreciate these positive people that are a part of my life.

In other news...I need to put together a video for the Alaska job interview. I am so hopeful I can get this job. I had a dream I cut my hair off the other night...I'm having Kenzie do my hair in a couple weeks and this may be a sign to do something drastic! What do you all think? I fit into my old "skinny" jeans this morning, so of course I wore them.

Friday, February 19, 2010

Work it! Work it!

I'm a working girl. Sort of. I'm actually a nursing student which means I have no life. Nor do I have an opportunity to hold an actual job. But what I do get to do is beg people to let me work for them on the days that I do not have class, clinical, homework to do or tests to study for. That is what happened today (and tomorrow). As if I don't have enough on my plate, I miss working! I really would not hate having a job again, moreover, I wouldn't hate having the paycheck that comes with it! As a self diagnosed shopaholic, money always comes in handy. I'm preparing for my spring break holiday and as the planning continues, I am obliged to save more money or make more money to compensate for what I will be spending. Dinner at the Space Needle...check. Shopping downtown Seattle...check. Bodies the Exhibition...check. Five days of pure, clean, exciting, fun that will more than likely cost way beyond what I actually have in my bank accout...check...I can not wait! Thank goodness for people willing to not work and tax returns :)

Have I mentioned that I'm getting baptized in the LDS church?!? March the date yo! I told my mom yesterday, who just so happens to be a devoted catholic. Bless her heart, the only thing she was concerned about was whether she would be able to come. I told her that all I want is for her to be there. My mother has been absolutely wonderful during my entire journey and discovery of the Mormon religion. I love her so much and appreciate her support more than anything!

Well...better get back to work. Hope everybody is having a super radical day!

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

New Beginnings

So the story of my new boyfriend goes way beyond romance. Shortly after I starting talking with Taurean again, I met a very influential girl (Haeli) and she became a very very close friend...and then again, shortly after that, I was having a rough day babysitting my girlfriend's children and the missionaries rang the door bell. I knew then that somebody was trying to tell me something. This had to be a string of clues that ended with some greater meaning. I asked Haeli if I could go to to church with her and that weekend I joined her. I have been in love with the LDS church ever since that day. I will never forget my first time...I walked out of the church with so much excitement and knowing that this was exactly what I needed. I have maximized every opportunity I have to acquire more knowledge about the Mormon church and how I can become a part of it. I am so incredibly thankful for Jaxon and Haeli Allen for assisting me with my journey. These two have opened up their home for me to meet with the missionaries and have very willingly answered all of my questions. Tonight during my meeting with the missionaries I set a date for my baptism. I know this is right for me. I know the words are true and this is what I want and need in my life. I am so thankful that I have this opportunity and I wouldn't have my life any other way.

In other will never believe what I found today! Fat free, sugar free, calorie free, cholesterol free, gluton free chocolate dip! Who woulda guessed?!? And it isn't even horrible! There is a very possible chance that my body has just convinced itself that this is actually delicious because I have been with holding all other forms of deliciousness from myself since I have been doing this detox stint. (Just what the body ordered after surviving the weekend on Pringles and licorice) Anyhoo...tomorrow is banana and skim milk day and I am planning on dipping my bananas in this chocolate made of nothing and enjoying it as much as I possibly can!

Good night friends!

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Day Deuce = The Happiest Girl in the World

Well today I had my OB/Peds final and I feel it went pretty well. But that is NOT the best news of the day. What is really inportant is that I GOT A BOYFRIEND!! Hehe! And it is the cutest most adorable story ever :) So, I have been rekindling a romance with a summer fling I had back in 2003. We started talking again (we have always kept in touch but not "romantically") and it has been just wonderful. Today we started the "relationship" talk via text message and my phone started ringing. It was him. He said "I really didn't want to have this conversation over text...will you be my girlfriend?" I know it is cheesy but I love cheese and this made me the happiest girl in the world. This is the guy I will be marrying. Or, I really hope so! Is it wrong that I have already started planning my future pending wedding? haha! Everything just feels so right and I could not ask for anything more. Happy Happy Happy! I am at a loss for words. I really am. But this is my happy face...

I have the biggest and most ridiculous smile. But I have looked like this all day since getting "popped the question"! Lol! I absolutely can not wait to see what the future has in store for me :)

Monday, February 15, 2010

I loved my Valentines Day weekend!!

So I totally can say that I had the BEST valentines day EVER! Plus, the "BEST" lasted from Friday through Sunday! We left for Missoula on Friday morning. "We" are Jaxon, Weston, and Haeli Allen...and then yours truly! Our tour bus was actually a 3/4 ton pickup, 5th wheel trailer, and band equipment trailer...we had quite the rig! Haeli and I knitted the entire way to Missoula. I made bracelets that became known as "power cuffs" which I'm not mad about! Kenzie showed up and us three girls taught the shopping circuit a lesson! If there is one thing that makes me is shopping. Kyle Shobe and The Walk 'Em boys played. I learned how to waltz. The girls became the official "Walk 'Em Girls" (t-shirts will soon be made) Slept 7 deep in the trailer. But the BEST part about the entire weekend was just being with my new friends! I have not laughed as hard or had as much fun as I did this last weekend in so long. Thank you everybody for such an amazing weekend!! Love you!!

My first day!

Hello blog! This is my first time...please bare with me. I am at a completely transitional time in my life and I could not be happier. For nearly twenty eight years I have been fighting to figure out who I am and now it is finally happening! Two years ago I moved to a tiny town in Montana to finish my nursing degree. Best decision ever! As much as I hated it at first, I am so thankful for that decision. I truly believe that everything happens for a reason. In my blog I will be exposing all my reasons. But right now...I gotta go get ready to see my friend enjoy your day ( I know I will) and blog ya later!